A peace that surpasses all understanding;

Once in awhile, I find it important to stock take. I honestly don't really care nor have the time to update anymore. Anything subjective I would wish to speak about is exhausted by the rigour of school life. In short, what remains tends to be the inconsequential emotions that you don't care about. (Not implying that you might care in the first place.)

I guess a lot has changed from two posts ago. But all for the better. That much I know. To understand someone is not merely to just accept what the person is saying but to take it as if you were in that person's shoes and see it from their point of view, failing which indicates that perhaps you never really knew them.To totally go all literature-student on you would be to emphasise how "knowing" and "really knowing" someone is two entirely different things. But to me, there is no need to fight, to prove my point anymore. Some things can't be taught and are best learnt from revelation.

Anyway. That aside. I guess netball can be tough area for me now? Like I'm trying but maybe sometimes ensuring that I've got all angles covered to not make a mistake in a particular area actually makes me slip-up in some other aspect. Which is undoubtedly, frustrating. It's not that I don't enjoy it, I still love the game. But sometimes I feel like it's hard to belong. I don't know my place on court. And I don't seem to know myself very well as a player for me to know my limits and how much to expect from myself with each move. :/ It's hard to explain. I think I need to get to know myself better.  And I guess I've really gotta trust God, that if He put me here, He has a plan to build my character. Even if I don't see the results now, I'm going to stick it through. Even if I don't see the results next year, I'm going to be faithful with the little. Even when the little seems littler, I know His promises won't fade.

On a separate note, I'm really thankful for His grace this CTs. Like I really spent so much time playing during the hols I would've been happy to just scrape through CTs, but really, exceedingly, abundantly, above all expectation, He has provided. I missed 15 days of school due to competition and Pre-U Sem. That was like the entire book worth of econs lectures. And I couldn't really match studying for CTs and the fact that it was the June "hols" up since they have always been just holidays until this year. In fact, I Pre-U Sem-ed week 1 away. The second week I nua-ed until like thurs and fri before I actually studied. And it was like nua until can't even remember what I did with my time. And when I'd finally started studying, I went for church camp in week 3. So there was week 3 gone. Not that I regret it. And truly, truly, when you pursue Jesus first, He pursues everything that is important to you too.. :) First half of week 4 was spent at OG chalet and then on Sunday, Melz and I went for first because we realised we really should study at least a little. Better to plant a few seeds than not have anything at all for Him to multiply.

But really my results have been so graced, I can't claim any credit for myself. And this doesn't mean that I won't study because His grace is sufficient, BUT there is always blessing in sowing the right seeds in the right season. And in the season of studies, seeds of studying, I shall sow. In fact, I should probably be studying more in the build up to promos. But as the spirit directs. :)

H1 GP - E

H2 History - E

H2 Economics - D

H2 Literature - S

H1 Math- B

H1 Chinese - B

Total: 44 rank points.

Chinese was like amaaaaaazing. I mean, it's chinese. Totally did not expect a B. Maybe the paper was easier. But even so. WOW. Hahaha. I have to say I was a little disappointed with some of my results but in the end on a whole I did much better than I'd dare expect. And I won't say I'm sad-sad over the ones I thought I could do better for because I didn't prepare much to begin with.

Speaking of which, I think I've really gotta get going with my EoM. Dang. PW- bane of my existence. But help me stay faithful to the things You've placed in my life. 

Love,

Debs.