I have never...

... walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet
But, at Your word Lord,
I receive Your faith to walk on oceans deep.


| 20 October 2010. Day Eighty-Eight of my faith journey with God. |

I'm just so waiting for O levels to be here and over. Now it's about five more days to the O levels and I'm really anticipating moving back to my house and etc. I've packed already. xD HAHAHAHAH. I just miss home. A lot. And my family. And my big bed. And my room. HAHAH. xD

Anyway, from time to time, I still feel as if I'm not completely well-prepared for all my subjects. Like there are definitely some doubts here and there but for example, for Chemistry, I've no idea why, but I suddenly feel much clearer about the concepts and what i need to write in my answer. Especially for the paper 2 part. And that's really amazing coz I've just been practicing papers but I believe that Daddy God has had a part to play in this because He's really just filled me with wisdom and opened up my mind to receive all the things that I need to remember.

Sometimes, I can't help but feel a bit worry over whether I am well prepared enough for everything. But then, just do it scared I guess. HAHA. And just believe that since I have spoken blessings over my life, since I have spoken good results over my life, even though while I'm saying it, I may not completely believe it, but when I depend on His grace, He turns around and sees me in my faith, however little there is. And I believe that out of speaking, an assurance will bloom in my heart that will give rise to letting god take care of making it a reality.

Even should the wind and the waves howl and roll, I'm in the boat. And even if I am to fall, I fall in the boat. And since Jesus is in my boat, there will be an overabundance of supply and there will be peace to the storm. :) I guess sometimes it's not about just believing, but choosing to look to Daddy God, choosing not to look at your circumstance and dwelling on them so much that the swell up into problems that you overestimate when the fact is that GOD is bigger than ANY problem and when you remember and act as if He is the only thing that matters, even if you're unsure you act and speak as if you know that He is the biggest deciding factor, you give Him the opportunity to step into your situation, to turn your evil day into a day of rejoicing, to turn every testing into a testimony, to make every challenge a breeding ground for miracles and God-like results. This is our God.

I choose to look to You my Lord,
You've ransomed me, 
Lifted me up,
When I am weak,
Then I am strong,
I cast my cares, 
On You alone.


I sing hosanna,
I sing hosanna,
Your selfless love reversed my shame,
I sing hosanna,
I sing hosanna,
Salvation's gift is mine to claim.


So even though I know that in and of myself I'm not that good, I'm not that smart, but I know that because I'm in Him and He's in me, I can't help but do well. I can't help but hit the mark, because never once has Jesus missed the mark or even gone the slightest bit off the mark. And as He is, so am I in this world. Though I don't see it from my own effort, I just believe that as I speak, so shall I receive. And I just know that somehow, I'll get six points!

Love,
Debs. [ Whom the Lord shall make the head and not the tail, above only and not beneath, ]