It's horrible when something suddenly strikes you in the middle of a situation where you don't have your computer or something to take down a note with. Or rather, when you don't have the time to, like per se, during an examination. Because that's exactly what happened to me.
I know I've been asking to experience God's love more and more, for Him to show me His love for me more and more. And then God seemed to talk to me while I was doing my SS prelim this morning. You know, it's not about feeling His love, He loves you whether you feel it or not, but rather, it's about looking at the cross, where His love poured out. He has already shown the greatest demonstration of His love on the cross. Even when He blesses us now out of love, it will never be as much as the love He poured out at the cross when Jesus died for our sins. So now I kinda have a better idea of what it really means to judge God and His love for me not based on my situation but based on His love for me, His unwavering, unending love that was given at the cross.
Sure it's nice when God blesses you with all sorts of awesome things (and He does love to bless His beloved children), you definitely feel the love at those times in your life, but more importantly, during the times when you're down and out, during the times when you've just had a super suay day, during the plain shitty days, during the times when all the odds seem against you, during the times you feel lousy and stupid, during the times no one else cares, during the times you're angry, during the times you feel ashamed, during the times things aren't going as planned, during the times you feel rejected, during the times you feel that you're not good enough, during the times you feel alone, during the times when you cry, during the times you hurl profanities, during the aftermath of a bad decision, during your pain, during your regret, those, are the most important times to remember not to look at your situation, if you look at the circumstances that surround you it's a depressing scene, but when you look up, when you look at the finished work and the cross, when you cry out to your Daddy God, Abba Father, He hears you, He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13: 5), He hears your cry and He will turn everything around for your good.
The cross is the measure of His love for us, not our jobs/results/good deeds/circumstances. It's everything we need, if only if we remember that very fact even in the tough times. It's easy to say that God loves me when everything is going as planned, but remember to say that God still loves me even though I'm currently having a shitty time. When you are thankful for everything and remember Jesus' love for you even in bleak and hopeless times, you'll find the ray of hope, that is, God's love for you. And the perfect love casts out every fear (1 John 4: 18).
My point is, from now on, I'm not going to ask God show me His love for me, I'm going to tell Him to point me to the cross every single day and remind me that that is His love for me.
Okay. I totally did that on my own with Microsoft Paint so it doesn't look all too decent but I like it, you know why? Because I see my Daddy God's love for me. Guard your heart with His love love and rest and He will guard every thing else, feed on Daddy God's love for you and fight the Goliaths in your life knowing your covenant with your Daddy God at the cross, just like David.
Love divine, freely given,
Grace amazing came,
At the cross, You were broken,
Rejected and alone.
You paid redemption's price,
Carried the weight of my shame,
You offered Your all for me,
Because of Your love.
You see these beautiful holy spirit-inspired songs?
His love was freely given. .At the cross, His grace was spilled for all our sins, He was broken so that we may be healed and whole, He was rejected, so that we may be accepted in the eyes of God and man, He was alone so that we'll never be alone. He paid redemption's price, a price we couldn't pay, He carried the weight of our shame so that we can hold our head high as the righteousness of God in Christ,
He offered His all for us, because of His love.
Take His love for you, run with it. Take as much as you want, as if you're the only one in the whole wide world. His love is unlimited, take it as if He loves you alone. Keep it close to you so that when the accuser comes to discourage you, His love covers you.
Whenever I hit hump on the road, point me back to Your love. Remind me of Your love and Your heart for me, most importantly, lead me to the cross, where Your love poured out.
Love,
Deborah. [The MOST beloved child of the Most High God. xP ]
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