"She had been made to break a necessary social law. but no law known to the environment."

I don't mean this in the context Thomas Hardy did, but I find it to be undeniably true- in more things than one. How social conventions determine whatever’s right and wrong in whichever season it may be.

I guess it is true that guidelines are there to protect the bulk of the majority that may be less fortunate than I have been and prevent them from getting hurt. But then guidelines are merely guidelines and without true revelation if they are right for one, it makes no sense to blindly adhere to them because because because I don't know how to put this, but laws are dead. It's the revelation that makes them relevant. That's the gist of it.

I interrupt this thought with a glance towards the 8 cases of Sims 2 CDs on my table. I HAVE NOT PLAYED SIMS 2/3 FOR DAMN LONG. 

The realization invokes deprivation that I had not yet registered because I barely even have time to think about it. My computer- being reformatted countless times due to cursed virus attack- is pretty much minimalist. Like I have two columns of icons. This saddens me. :( 

I consider for a moment installing all my Sims now. Then a voice of reason strikes and reminds me I have Promos in 29 days (actually not a voice of reason, I just recalled a tweet by my classmate). THEN I conclude that I will play it during the holidays after Promos!!! *EUREKA* And then it dawns upon me that GIVEN I PROMOTE, my As are next year… :( WHEN WILL I BE REUNITED WITH MY SIMS?!?!?!?!?!?? D: 

The world is much colder now…..

WOW. My ability to digress. Or maybe it's the lack of a sustainable attention span. :/ Now I’m lazy to rationalize my thoughts in words. My main point is that sometimes I don’t even know if I am just following the guidelines set by the wise who have gone ahead because I feel that I have made many mistakes and I now do not trust myself in this particular area OR because I feel that it is really the direction in which I am convicted to go because I feel it is “right for me”. What does that even mean anyway?

Someone reminded me that I had a blog. And thus, the spawning of this blog post. Which otherwise has no purpose.  But that person’s casual comment also reminded me of other things. Things that I had been feeling but had not been giving much thought to. And a girl friend questioned me on these things awhile ago, though adamant in response, I did think about it too. Even my mom did make mention. Or maybe  the before-after-during effects of PMS and the entire burden it encompasses does have its large effect. Just a thought.

It seems like Semester 2 of J1 is like crazy. It just feels like exam after exam, all within about a month of each other. THIS IS FREAKING MADNESS.  My last post was about my CT results and by now I’ve also gotten my MSA2 results. Which are MIRACULOUSLY 1 point improvement from my CT results. WHICH IS CRAZY TALK. COZ I DIDN’T EVEN HAVE TIME TO GET BACK IN THE STUDY MOOD FOR MSA2 RIGHT AFTER CTS. He is so faithful. My Chinese went back to a U though… OHDAMN. HAHA. But it’s okay, He will deliver, He will provide, His arm is mighty to save!!!!! xD

I can’t believe I’m like 3/8 done with my JC life. (YES, I JUST HAVE TO BE NON-CONFORMIST AND NOT USE HALVES AND QUARTERS. BADASS.) Which is so fast. I’m super thankful for a generally awesome class and since I’ve not yet mentioned and they probably won’t notice… I LOVE THESE A07 BABES. :)

MELZ(a.k.a ODI), MEL JEN, KENGZ, NUTWONG, ESTHERLY, WENNY, WANmenstruationPING, TAITINGTING. <3

- UNDER CONSTRUCTION STUPID BLOGGER KEEPS REPORTING UNEXPECTED ERROR IN UPLOADING PHOTOS. I GUESS MY GIRLFRIENDS ARE TOO HOT... :s -

In frustration, I shall go do PW that has constantly been a pain-in-the-ass for the past year. IT'S LIKE EVERY TIME YOU THINK YOU'VE GOT IT FIGURED OUT... YOU DON'T. AND WHEN YOU'RE DONE WITH PI, THERE'S GPP, THEN THERE'S EOM, AND I&R. WHEN WILL THIS END? D: By 11/11 apparently... But still. WHEN WILL THIS ENNNNNNNND???????? D: ANYWAY. PW is likely to lead to more frustration so maybe I'll do math after that. But you've stopped caring about what I'm gonna do awhile ago. KTHXBYE.

Love,

Debs.

P.S. I'M SUPER EXCITE FOR ARROW SERVICE LATER~~~ Always sucha blessing. :)

A peace that surpasses all understanding;

Once in awhile, I find it important to stock take. I honestly don't really care nor have the time to update anymore. Anything subjective I would wish to speak about is exhausted by the rigour of school life. In short, what remains tends to be the inconsequential emotions that you don't care about. (Not implying that you might care in the first place.)

I guess a lot has changed from two posts ago. But all for the better. That much I know. To understand someone is not merely to just accept what the person is saying but to take it as if you were in that person's shoes and see it from their point of view, failing which indicates that perhaps you never really knew them.To totally go all literature-student on you would be to emphasise how "knowing" and "really knowing" someone is two entirely different things. But to me, there is no need to fight, to prove my point anymore. Some things can't be taught and are best learnt from revelation.

Anyway. That aside. I guess netball can be tough area for me now? Like I'm trying but maybe sometimes ensuring that I've got all angles covered to not make a mistake in a particular area actually makes me slip-up in some other aspect. Which is undoubtedly, frustrating. It's not that I don't enjoy it, I still love the game. But sometimes I feel like it's hard to belong. I don't know my place on court. And I don't seem to know myself very well as a player for me to know my limits and how much to expect from myself with each move. :/ It's hard to explain. I think I need to get to know myself better.  And I guess I've really gotta trust God, that if He put me here, He has a plan to build my character. Even if I don't see the results now, I'm going to stick it through. Even if I don't see the results next year, I'm going to be faithful with the little. Even when the little seems littler, I know His promises won't fade.

On a separate note, I'm really thankful for His grace this CTs. Like I really spent so much time playing during the hols I would've been happy to just scrape through CTs, but really, exceedingly, abundantly, above all expectation, He has provided. I missed 15 days of school due to competition and Pre-U Sem. That was like the entire book worth of econs lectures. And I couldn't really match studying for CTs and the fact that it was the June "hols" up since they have always been just holidays until this year. In fact, I Pre-U Sem-ed week 1 away. The second week I nua-ed until like thurs and fri before I actually studied. And it was like nua until can't even remember what I did with my time. And when I'd finally started studying, I went for church camp in week 3. So there was week 3 gone. Not that I regret it. And truly, truly, when you pursue Jesus first, He pursues everything that is important to you too.. :) First half of week 4 was spent at OG chalet and then on Sunday, Melz and I went for first because we realised we really should study at least a little. Better to plant a few seeds than not have anything at all for Him to multiply.

But really my results have been so graced, I can't claim any credit for myself. And this doesn't mean that I won't study because His grace is sufficient, BUT there is always blessing in sowing the right seeds in the right season. And in the season of studies, seeds of studying, I shall sow. In fact, I should probably be studying more in the build up to promos. But as the spirit directs. :)

H1 GP - E

H2 History - E

H2 Economics - D

H2 Literature - S

H1 Math- B

H1 Chinese - B

Total: 44 rank points.

Chinese was like amaaaaaazing. I mean, it's chinese. Totally did not expect a B. Maybe the paper was easier. But even so. WOW. Hahaha. I have to say I was a little disappointed with some of my results but in the end on a whole I did much better than I'd dare expect. And I won't say I'm sad-sad over the ones I thought I could do better for because I didn't prepare much to begin with.

Speaking of which, I think I've really gotta get going with my EoM. Dang. PW- bane of my existence. But help me stay faithful to the things You've placed in my life. 

Love,

Debs.

LEGACY CAMP 2011

Camp was awesome. Not in the way I expected it to be, and in fact I didn't feel it was that awesome while I was still in it, but now, though I've left camp already, I really feel that the seeds sown are already beginning to bear fruit. And I wanna be in this state of praiseinfinity for infinity. :) I couldn't find these songs on the internet so this isn't an actual post but just me posting the lyrics here so I'll remember them. :P HEHEHEEH.

My Heart Overflows

You put a gleam in my eye and put a skip in my step,
when my hope is gone, Lord Your hope remains yet.

You put a song in my mouth and a sword in my hand,
My heart overflows with the goodness of the Lord

Hopeless and lost, I wandered through the night,
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide.
But Your love broke through, the hardness of my heart.
And now this joy I feel, it cannot be denied!

Shout Hallelujah

I'm Gonnna run with Fire 
The good news of the gospel I will speak 
I'm gonna fly with the spirit 

I'm soaring over mountains of defeat. 

Because Jesus you are the Truth that sets me free, 
Jesus you are the power in me, 
Jesus you fill my heart with praise, 
I'm jumping in the river of redeeming grace. 

We're gonna Shout Hallelujah Shout Hallelujah 
Giving praise to you my God who Reigns 

SO. Hi there.

Apparently, I was consumed in an unexpected hiatus due to the overwhelming nature of a pre-u education. Phewwie.

The past few months have just been wow. I have discovered the beginning of my intense hatred for PW and in fact I've to work on finding yet another case study. ANNOYINGSHITZXZXZ!! Hahahha.

In a sense, I feel like nothing is going as planned and outcomes aren't what I'd typically expected out of my life here. Like some things I stepped into JC with are quickly being replaced because the people around me have taught me otherwise and I guess in this particular aspect it's good.

But other than that, like I guess I feel it's kinda hard to adjust when I used to be involved in so much in sec school and like when I realised it, it was really His favour upon me but now I've come to a point where it seems like it isn't there anymore. And though I'd hate to admit coz it sounds so. urgh. but still. The fact that is that I do feel it.

What I've realised, after a number of unspoken and shrugged off disappointments, is that maybe all the while I'd still been looking to my own human effort, my own eloquence, my past credentials and personal achievements when the very fact is that when I look to my arm of flesh, I turn away from His grace and unmerited favour. In a sense, I feel like continually God is building me up in this area, not to hold on to the tangibles but to trust in the ever-true Word. Can you feel like a victor even when you don't have the victory yet? I don't think I've fully grasped the concept of that. But in a sense I guess it's about knowing I'm loved, knowing that I'm special, knowing that I'm able, even when it doesn't appear so, even when I feel like crap.

I feel like I've really been brought into the wilderness- there's nothing here for me to hold on to, at times even God may seem to be far off, but yet I must know that He is with me, He will never leave nor forsake me and because of that I will not fear. I feel like there's so much resistance from all around, but maybe that's because I have failed to acknowledge and put serious action into the desire that God has placed in my heart from before all these other distractions evaded- the desire to serve and to be a blessing. And when you choose to seek the most important thing in your life, He illuminates all the other things that are important to you as well. :)

MSAs were a really-just-scrape-through-by-God's-grace because I got 3 Us. And yet I still managed to clear MSAs. In fact, my last grade I received which was for Econs was exactly what I needed to clear my rank points.

H2 History - E (I hesitated because I wasn't sure if I was doing the right thing but when I didn't hesitate in my second attempt, I got a B instead. X.X)
H2 Economics - B (ONE mark away from an A. Never mind. He's the author and the perfector!)
H2 Literature - U (The whole cohort got U's)
H1 Math - U (OOPZ. HAHA)
H1 General Paper - B (ONE mark away. AGAIN.)
H1 Chinese - U (I CANT DO CHI COMPRE!!!! D: )

Total: 36 rank points!!!
YAYAYAYAY!!! HAHAHAHAHAH.

Love,
Debs.

IS-RAELI AWESOME. :)

I NEED to document my trip to Israel. Seriously. It's so good I don't wanna forget a single part of it. SO... Since I'm so infrequently here, I'll add more and more to this post gradually and soon, it will be a full documentation of my experience in the Holy Land. :) But I'll only choose ONE picture to represent each place coz with thousands of photos, it's too tough to upload coz like. ya. HAHAHA. Okay.

DAY ONE~~
So after approximately 15 hours of flying time(Thai Airways, El Al) we finally arrived at Tel Aviv International Airport and I tell you I was super excited for the rest of the day and trip. I mean, it's Israel. HAHAH. My flight was quite bad because of a rather rude, inconsiderate and totally stuck up passenger that I was sitting beside but let's not emphasise on that, nevertheless, that was a rather traumatic long flight experience. I mean, 11 hours next to the dude. At least I had Barn with me. HAHA. If it were Sam and I we'd be damn emo. xD

Our first stop was breakfast!Lotsa cheeses, yum yum, but a bit strong. HAHA. And Isaiah was still grappling with facing his fear of food poisoning. Super funny! HAHAHAH.

Mount of Precipice
Our first site, where the crowd wanted to force Jesus off the cliff on counts of blasphemy but you know, nobody could take His life, He laid down His life. No one could take His life until it was the time and it's a really cool image of Jesus because He simply walked away. A bit too excited here I think, coz I couldn't really pay attention! But it was the first site!!! Hahahaha.


Then we went to Nazareth Biblical Village, a scaled "remake" of Nazareth in Jesus' time. It was so awesome. Like a small garden tomb, people role-playing sheperds, houses, professions of old and even animals like donkeys and sheep. What I really liked was the sheepfold. It's a enclosure without a gate and the sheep are kept in there because the sheperd sleeps at the entrance and acts as a gate, preventing the sheep from running away and preventing predators from getting to the sheep.

It's a really beautiful picture of how Jesus is our sheperd, He leads us by still waters(Pslam 23) and He protects us, if anything wants to get to us, it has to go through Him, the good sheperd, first. And knowing Him, He'll never let harm come near us because He loves us.

Also, we saw the process of making olive oil. The first pressing produces the extra virgin oil which is used in the temple and for anointing, this is what Jesus went through in the Garden of Gethsemane. The second pressing is used for cooking and is a picture of the healing that Jesus released for us when He was scourged at the scourging post. Oil from the third press is used for cleaning/washing purposes and it's the picture of the final pressing at the cross.

Despite the increasing pressure, Jesus stayed through the perfect, complete pressing to redeem us from the curse of the law.

Then we headed for lunch. Which still felt really weird at the time coz since Israel is 6 hours behind SG time, it was about 8pm and there we were, sitting under the sun by the sea of Galilee, eating St. Peter's fish, which by the way, tastes really good the way they cook it. With pita bread, humus and various stuff. Except a lot of us, pampered as we are, don't know how to eat fish properly. AND we each had one fish. I could manage the first side but after that I couldn't get the bones out, so... Gideon the Fishmaster had to help basically everyone at our table manage the bones. But he super zai. Can pull out the whole set of bones. HAHA. Maybe that's just zai to us noobie fish eaters. Hahahaha. And on a side note, Zephan likes soft bread. It makes him happy. HAHAHAHAH.

The landscape in Israel, as expected, is very different from here in SG. The roads are surrounded with cliffs, seas, animals, valleys and vegetation. But it's pretty nice being surrounded by nature. :) The first day was meant to have quite a number of sites but seeing as our flight was delayed about 2 hours due to El Al's extremely strict and tight security checks which includes asking every passenger questions, we only managed our last site for the day which is the Church of St. Peter's Primacy, along the sea of Galilee.

This is the place that Jesus after His resurrection, restored Peter who had denied Him three times. When Jesus told the disciples to cast their net to the right side, they caught 153 fish and the Hebrew alphabets for 153 make up the sentence "I AM THE LORD". How cool right? Even the numbers point to Jesus. And truly, this is the place of love where Jesus reminds us that no matter how badly we've failed, despite our short comings, despite things that disqualify us, He still loves us and He still has a purpose for us. He can use a person that has failed by the world's standards and turn him into something great like what He did for Peter.

This is the 3rd time Jesus shows Himself after His resurrection(John 21:1)
And in this way He showed Himself.
Grace + love even when Peter failed, He was brought back to the place he was broken and restored by Jesus. He brought Peter back to his first love- fishing.

Bring the fish that YOU have just caught. (John 21:10)
Even when He helps us, He lets us have the credit. :)
Your failures and weaknesses cannot overcome His grace. Only when Peter was honest about himself was Jesus able to use him because he depended on God's love and supply, not his own efforts + abilities. Jesus'll meet you at the place of your failure and backsliding.

DAY TWO~~
Mount of Beatitudes
Capernaum
Golan Heights(Bashan) + View of Mount Hermon

Caesarea Philippi
Mount Arbel

Ancient Boat Museum

The Galilee Experience

DAY THREE~~

Boat Ride on the Sea of Galilee

River Jordan

Dead Sea Float

Night in the Judean Desert

DAY FOUR~~

City of David

Hezekiah's Tunnel

Pool of Siloam

The Upper Room

The Church of St. Peter in Gallicantu

DAY FIVE~~

Mount of Olives

Dominus Flevit

Garden of Gethsemane

Old City of Jerusalem
Pool of Bethesda(Church of St. Anne)

Lithostratos/ Ecco Homo Arch

Ramparts Walk

The Israel Museum + Holyland Model

DAY SIX~~

Zorah/ Eshtaol

Kiriath Jearim

Yad Vashem Holocaust Museum

SHOPPING~~ @ Ben Yehuda

DAY SEVEN~~

The Temple Mount

Western Wall

Southern Temple Mount

Jewish Quarters

Temple Mount Salvage Operations

DAY EIGHT~~
The Garden Tomb

The Valley of Elah

The Road to Emmaus*

2011...

That's the theme for this year. And that doesn't even mean that restful increase ends there. This year, we're gonna step through the breakthrough because in 2011, You crown the year with Your goodness, And Your paths drip with abundance(Pslam 65:11).


Awesome eh? Anyway, as the hot topic has been for the past couple-a days, O level results! Truly, Daddy God has carried me through and I believe that He has already prepared a place for me that no one can take away. He's given me the score to ascend to the place He wants me to be to position me for maximum blessings, minimum problems! :D


I would say I did well, maybe not that well, considering with the small amount of tuition and the many commitments I had, maybe if I wasn't spread so thin I would've done better in the academic sense, but I think I had a very fulfilling life in Tanglin. Truly a holistic experience. My lowest grade is B3, which makes my cert look super nice and truly, Daddy God has brought me from glory to glory. You never backslide when you bring God into the picture, you only ever move forward. And I truly have. At PSLE, I had 3 As and a C. Now I've eliminated C from my results. And with God there's no where to go but up so I'm expecting straight As at the A levels and then moving to a perfect GPA in University because Jesus is the author and the perfector. 


English Lang- A1
I really did a screw up in the SW component. I wrote to the wrong audience. And right after that, I told few people about it because I didn't want to focus on the mistake but to focus on the perfection that is in Jesus. Suffice to say, this was really a "graced" paper and truly, even in your strengths, you need God. And the wonderful thing is, He never fails us. :)


Literature in English- A1
After the first paper. I felt so screwy coz I hadn't practiced Literature essays in a long time so I was feeling shitty. BUT, I prayed for restoration for the second paper. And really, He performs, Jesus was thinking through my head and writing through my hands coz the 2nd paper became so effortless I still had time to read the other texts that my school didn't teach. He never fails to restore and His restoration is always way greater than the original product.


Combined Humanities (Hist/SS)- A2
I was still scoring B4 for CH at prelims but really, Daddy God is faithful to perform because I didn't think I had written awesome essays compared to my normal standard. I wasn't sure about my SBQ answers, as usual. But God who's the same yesterday, today and forever, will never let me down. 


Mathematics- A2
I wanted an A1 and I was sure I would get it coz I had at least 95% of the answers, but I guess Daddy God was in the works to give me the score to be placed in the right place. :)


Physics- B3
I really thank God for working through my tutors to get the info and concepts into my head because at prelims I was still getting C6 kay!!! Hahahahah. Not by might, nor by power, but by the Holy Spirit. (Zechariah 4:6)


Chemistry- B3
Biology- A2
Add. Math- B3
Chinese- B3


I was just saying to my mom that it was really by His grace, especially since I got five distinctions- the number of grace! Anyway, as a close a chapter here I'm really thankful for having had Daddy God walk every step of the journey with me even when it felt like He wasn't there. I am really thankful for the teachers and friends that have been placed in my life that were really pillars of support and sources of encouragement, true blessings from above. :)


Tomorrow's the deadline for the submission of our JAE choices. The conflict has been resolved too. :) At first I felt as if ACJC was really the place for me, like it's the best place. But I think God gently turned my heart towards SAJC. Because I suddenly felt a greater peace and an inclination in my heart towards SA. At first I felt confused because I'd wanted to be in AC for so long, but afterwards I realised that hey, I only feel confused because I'm trying to fight the fact that my long-time desire has ultimately faded. And then it became pretty clear. 


I still have to wait for the posting results and I don't know for sure whether SAJC's the place for me, but like how I entered Tanglin because I missed my previous choice by one point, I believe God has His ways to direct me in the right path. After all, I do believe that He has really grown me more in my years in Tanglin and given me many opportunities than anywhere else. I'm on SA's 2010 COP so it may be risky but I believe that God has prepared a place for me, whether or not it is in SA, and that place that He has reserved for me will not be taken by anyone else because just as He has placed every star in the night sky in their perfect places, He has a perfect place for me. 


There He will grow me and build me to reach the great calling He has in my life. :)


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Remember this? :D It's all the things I had been hoping for in 2011 and really, Daddy God has fulfilled and more than fulfilled.


#1. Rest :)
I really, truly experienced rest and the increase that comes with it because the O levels were really just smooth sailing- on Jesus boat!! I didn't paddle and sweat and tire because it became effortless when I allowed Daddy God to take 'O'ver! :)

#2. An even greater revelation of Daddy God's love for me.

I think 2010 was really the year I spent more time with Daddy God, talking to Him and spending time in the word and truly that gives revelation. Revelation isn't head knowledge, it's heart knowledge.

#3. Get into ACJC.

#4. Get 6 for L1R2B2, 7 for L1R5.

I think that these are expectations that God has truly surpassed. On one hand, in the natural I got 6 for L1R2B2 so Daddy God has clearly met it. But looking at the less obvious thing, scoring 9 for L1R5 was God's means of putting me in the right place. And wherever I end up, He will cause all things to work together for my good. (Romans 8:28)

#5. Continue playing netball. :)

#6. Go overseas with my gals.

I guess I'm still playing netball. So that's not really an expectation. And I didn't get to go overseas with my gfs but I think God knew that I needed to spend some time at home and back in SG too considering He did fulfill #7 and #9. :D

#7. GOISRAEL 2010 with Almighties!!!

You HAVE delivered, You HAVE provided. Truly it was probably the best experience in my life. I didn't want to come home. The boat ride on the sea of Galilee "Peace, Be still", calming my heart. Alone time in the Judean Desert when I heard Daddy God tell me, "Just as the numerous stars are perfectly in place, I will put you in the perfect place". The Garden of Gethsemane, He went through the pain for me, He did everything for me, because He loves me.

#8. Grow to 172cm (By my 18th b'Day)!! Lalalala~

This one's still work in progress but I believe I'll still be growing!!!! HAHAHAH. Hope doesn't disappoint. (Romans 5: 5)

#9. Go for Netball trip @ KL

My parents blessed me by allowing me to go for the trip and paying for all the costs. I took it as a christmas present but still they gave me something additional for christmas and I guess Daddy God's really been blessing me through my parents and also He has blessed me with wonderful, awesome parents. :)

And not to mention, Daddy God really gives you a harvest for what little seed you sow. The little seed I sowed as a tithe at the beginning of 2010 multiplied into a great harvest- Israel trip + money, monetary blessings from people, special allowances from my parents, Edusave awards. I calculated. About 70X what I sowed, AT LEAST. Sowing is just giving God the opportunity to bless you even more. :)

Love,
Debs.
[Whom Your anointing is upon to be a conqueror and co-heir with Christ]

A Year of Restful Increase,

And next year, Daddy God's gonna better our best. 


Hi. I've been so busy over the past months having fun and etc that I haven't even been here and ironically, I spent less time here compared to when I was actually still having exams. Well, suffice to say, Daddy God has more than been with me every step of this so-called, most stressful year I've been through and He'll be faithful to carry me through my results and beyond.


I've really been very blessed over this year. Anything I've given to God, He's more than given back. Anything I've lost, He's restored and is restoring. For all the stress I was to face, I took His in a beautiful exchange for My yoke is easy, My burden is light. 


I think one of the highlights was truly getting the chance to go to Israel and some experiences like the boat ride on the Sea of Galilee, sleeping in the Judean desert and being in the Garden of Gethsemane (to name the most impactful), have really just been healing and comforting experiences.


In the last 24 hours, things that had been bugging me for days before, were set into motion. Irreversible motion. But here I am trying to get back on the the beaten path and I guess it's just gonna bring me to a new level with Daddy God. Peace, be still. 


I guess the new year brings many new things and though I'll miss the things and the people who've been part of my 2010 but whether or not we like it, the earth keeps spinning, night turns to day and 2010 crawls away. I'm really thankful to all the beautiful people who've been there for me and who've really just seen me through the toughest of times.


I've no idea when I'll post again because my list of activities doesn't seem to ever run out. I haven't even gotten the chance to movie marathon with myself!!! xD This is my last post for this year, Blessed New Year. :) 


Love,
Debs [Beloved child of Daddy God]

Shine Your light, be that city of light;

We're gonna shout out loud, it's time to let it out,

It's Your life in me for all to see,

Coz our God reigns always,

Till the end of days,

We're gonna stand strong, stand tall

Coz Jesus Christ is Lord of all.

SO. I am one day before the end of the O levels. I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY. ~~~ Hahahahaha. And this has really been a journey of just letting the shepherd take the lead and to carry me and pick me up whenever I wasn't good enough, whenever my strength was abated. And it still is a journey. A never-ending one. Which is why I'm no longer counting up. Haha. 

Now I'm not too sure where I want to go after Tanglin but instead of just feeling "must go AC, must go AC", I feel like I know He has prepared a place for me in the school that He knows is best for me. Ultimately it may still be ACJC but whether or not it is, I believe that He will somehow position me in the school He wants me to be in, because He has gone ahead before me and He says it is good. And it's not as if I don't know that His plan is better and He has a way to lead us down the paths to lie by green pastures and rivers of living water. :) 

For me, when I made my choices of secondary school four years ago, I missed my 2nd choice by 1, ONE point. But in the end, I think God had opportunities and great friends for me to meet in Tanglin. I didn't know it then, but I know it now. Likewise for my bro, He'd always wanted to do air rifle as a CCA but after praying about it, he went to sleep and the CCA form had to be submitted the next day. When he woke up he decided to change it to rock climbing and now, he's like gotten nationals 1st. 

So really, I guess when you let God and let go of the need to make your own decisions, He will put you in a place to grow you. You'll never be put in a place where you don't need God so when you find it's tough, it's just coz He's gonna work something spectacular out for you. 

Well, this may be my last post in some time (but then again every time I say that I come back soon and ironically whenever I give no warning I disappear for ages so don't take my word for it. xD) because I'm super packed like all the way to 29th Nov at least. Then two days later I'm going for a Revive trip to M'sia for a week. I'll be back for 1.5 weeks and then I'll be in Israel for another 10 days. By then it'll be 30th Dec. So yeah. It's like restoration for all the times we've given up fun for studying over the past 10 months. Hehehe. 

I suppose now that we've finished the actual battle we're just all anticipating the results and I just believe that what God has started in our lives, He will be faithful to complete, to fulfill, to perfect. The results will be glorious and our papers have already been marked with such favour and grace overflowing. 

Love,

Debs [ Deeply loved, highly favoured and greatly blessed. ] 

If my heart has grown cold,

There Your love will unfold,

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

When I'm blind to my way,

There Your spirit will pray,

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand.

Oceans will part,

Nations come,

At the whisper of Your call,

Hope will rise, 

Glory shown,

In my life, Your will be done.

| 1 November 2010. Day One-Hundred of my faith journey with Daddy God. |

So today I finished another three papers and it was really by God's grace because at the end of literature paper two, my hand was as good as amputated, but Melodi and I believed that our strength would be restored and that we would run and not grow weary, we would walk and not faint. And God is faithful because I didn't realise at first, but after awhile during my Physics paper, it struck me that my arm wasn't aching. :)

Well, now I'm sleepy and tomorrow will be an entire day of mugging for Bio and Hist which are the day after but that means I'll be moving home, and that also means Os'll be over in 2 weeks! :D What I can say is that I wasn't really prepared for lit coz I hadn't written an essay for ages, but then I prayed that Daddy God would restore in my paper 2 and I really think He did because everything came much more naturally and I managed to finish ahead of time, in fact. He over-provides and restores in abundance. :) Even though I don't feel that good about paper 1, I believe that whatever I feel, His favour was on me and it will be good because of His grace. And with paper two it will be even better because it's just His grace upon grace. 

The past two weeks have just been super encouraging services that have really kept my hope and faith levels up throughout this examination and it's just so timely to refresh us for each wave of the examinations. Awesome. Well, it's almost over and I can't wait! Especially with the upcoming netball trip and the Israel trip which Daddy God has provided for! :D

Love,

Debs. [Whom He is blessing and has blessed exceedingly, abundantly above every expectation.]

Let Hope arise,

And darkness tremble,
In Your holy light.

Break down our pride,
And all the walls we've built up inside,
Our earthly crowns and all our desires,
We lay at Your feet.


| 29 October 2010. Day Ninety-Seven of my faith journey with God. |

So here we are again at the original slack day. I should totally get a bubble tea to reward myself for having completed the week. :D HAHAHAHAH. Well, we've completed the most hard-core week of the O levels and next week we've just two days of examinations but they are quite hard-core days in and of themselves luh. Just that we've two days to prepare for Physics and Literature and a day before the exam to prepare more for History and Biology. Seven papers down, eleven to go. Well, Chemistry today was easier than expected. Like a lot easier. Maybe that's why it's so hard to get an A1, but nonetheless, He will deliver, He will provide. And after this first week of exams, I'm kinda aiming to get A1 for everything now. Like I know it's hard and I know that's like almost impossible. Like what, one person got 9 A1's last year? But I don't know. It never hurt to aim high. And I don't wanna limit Daddy God.

I got off to a kinda bumpy start with the English paper, but hey, I'm not gonna talk about it because it's no point emphasizing on the what if's when I know that I'm going to score nonetheless because I put my hope and my trust in God and hope doesn't disappoint. Plus, though I am normally pretty proficient in the English language, when I continue to do well this time around it just goes to show that even man's mistakes can't outdo Daddy God's favour and His thumbprints on our lives. I say 'when' because I intend to do well and I believe that He'll help me get the grade I want. Anyway, He restored the rest of the days to me and I feel like the rest of the week hit it off pretty well. :)

Now, about the bell curve. I'm just trusting in the fact that He has declared me to be above and not beneath. ;)

Today will be my half-sabbath. Tomorrow evening will be the other half. After an entire week of studying, papers after papers, I think I need a break. :D

Love,
Debs. [ If God is for me, who can be against? ]